THE SUICIDE NOTE!

If you wake one morning
And you find the world mourning
If you peep through your window
And you don't see my shadow
If you walk to the almond tree
And you still don't find me
Don't come knocking on my door
Don't come asking for more

I may have left for your sake
I may have drowned in the lake
I may have drowned in my tears
The tears you gave me over the years
When nothing I did was enough
When sight of me stirred your wrath
Don't go asking of me
For I've left to make you free

And maybe, I should say sorry
For the discomfort and the worry
Well, you know the rest of the story
But I'm tired of saying sorry
So when you peep through your window
And you catch a glimpse of moving shadow
This was me tired of trying
This was me finally fleeing

When you wake in the morning
And you find the world mourning
Order to have their tears dry
Do smile while they cry
Do know that I tried
And by trying, I died!

LET ME IN!

An edifice of true beauty
Wallowing in solitude
With walls so high
Denying men of the great view

A chest of treasures
Buried to the deepest core
In tombs of silence
And echoes of sobs

A lady hurt too often
By the overrated phenomenon
The phenomenon of love
Purported by men as phenomenal

On the other side of her wall
Stands one curious pauper
With riches on the innate
A heart as pure as pure

Wandering and wondering
Why beauty of such magnitude
Goes about unnoticed
In chains-and-shackles-bound

Would you just let me in
Get me just beyond your walls
And let me at least try
To unravel this chain mystery

I come bearing nothing
But a key to these shackles
A song to this silence
A light to these tombs

I come as another
Another of you
Rejected and abandoned
With nothing at all to lose

Let me in, mi lady
As one to dry your tears
One to be your ears
Only if you let me in!

Would you, or would you not?

IN THE THOUGHTS OF A LADY!

Should I say it?
Would it deem fit?
Questions I ask myself,
When I'm alone with myself.

Does he like me?
Are we meant to be?
From night till morn,
The questions go on and on.

 I see how he stares,
While I descend the stairs.
That smile he wears;
Lo! I already said Yes!

Will he ever ask?
O! Waiting is such a task!
Should I approach him?
Thoughts make my head spin.

Does he feel same?
Would he be easy to tame?
The questions go on and on,
From night till morn.

Is it just in my head?
Perhaps an effect of my med,
Or mere infatuation?
O! What a situation!

Whatever tomorrow holds,
I pray it quickly unfolds.
For such instabilities,
Suppresses my abilities!



**Inspired by Adorable Adlin Rawkad!

I SING OF ADLIN 😍

I sing of a lady
One adorable as a baby
A lady Who hunts hearts
And mends their broken parts

I sing of a maiden
Whose beauty roots from Eden
With eyes like fireflies
She glows when she smiles

I sing of beauty
Pure, unadulterated beauty
Beautiful angel with no wings
The reason the bird sings

I sing of Adlin
Adlin, the lady; Adlin, the Queen
One who hangs on the hands of time
Hoping that soon the bells will chime

I sing like I have no choice
Longing to hear that soothing voice
Of one, so dear to me
One I long to see

O! Beautiful maiden
O! Beautiful Adlin
You have not the slightest clue
Of how much I miss you!

HOMECOMING 😕

On the same fields we laid
When I had to say goodbye
I lay once again
Several moons after that night

I lay again but in twisted manner
A manner of unclear anticipation
A manner of dread uncertainty
As a fool in his own paradise

A decade already,
Since that passionate goodbye
Things and times have changed
Bewildering my thoughts

Would you see me from afar,
Let go of all your belongings,
Run to me like old times
And give me a diving hug?

Would you hold me so tight
With tears down your cheeks
Whispering into my ears;
Don't you ever leave again!

Or would you wave from a distance
And whisper a silent Hi
With your face looking downwards
Like my presence is trouble?

Would you come riding a chariot,
Bearing the ring of King's wife?
Would I have to call you Highness
And bow like everyone else?

Did the blue bird deliver my letters?
Did you enjoy reading them?
Or were you patiently waiting,
To burn them before my very eyes?

On the same fields we laid
When I had to say goodbye,
Will I repeat the bad goodbye?
Or etch a memory beneath the moon!

DIVERSION

Lord, I'm lost
And I cannot locate the cross
My vision is shrouded
And my thoughts clouded
My knees have failed to kneel
And now my feet cannot feel

Lord, I'm lost
And I cannot locate the cross
Even beneath the bright light,
I doubt my own sight
I'm as one with no foresight
Like a kite on a stormy night

Lord I'm lost
And I admit I'm lost
I have come to crossroads
With offenses, a hundred folds
And though my sins be overly gross
Lead me once again to the cross

Aren't we all lost,
Trying to win at all costs?
Aren't we all lost,
Seeking worldly pleasures and all sorts?
Lord, we're all lost
Lead us once again, to the cross!

ISLAND

They say no man is an island

Perhaps I am no man

For I am an island 

A desolate one indeed

My plight is mine alone

My fight, against none but myself

I am as unto nothing

Unnoticed is both my presence and absence

I don't recall doing wrong

Yet I cannot forgive myself

I cannot trace my offense

How then do I let go?

I do not know myself

I don't think I ever will

How then will someone else?

I shall remain an island!

I am dying 

And no one knows 

No one must know

For no one will believe my story 

You will call me foolish

You will say I deserve it

Defending your arguments with logic

Pretending to be better than me

You who believe my story

You hurt me the most

You saw the tears inside

Yet you didn't push enough

You should have asked again

When I said I was ok

You should have asked again

And again, and again!

I am dying 

And you think my story is lame?

I am dying

And you all are to blame!